I have seen Michelle again since then, but for now, I will stop here. I have already written a chapter about that encounter. It’s connected to another series that will come out at a later date. (2018!) Don’t worry, it’s solid, and I have some more ideas for some future bonus Michelle posts.
Should I have married her? Maybe. My sisters love her, and so does my brother-in-law for all of the wrong reasons. (lol) But we wanted different things back then. I certainly don’t want any more children, and marriage hasn’t worked for me. My only marriage resulted in a bitter divorce that cost me over $100,000 in child support.
Lorelei is plenty. I love her so.
Michelle and I came together like two taxis on Broad street in a glorious crash. Nobody was killed and everybody fell in love.
I loved her, but I couldn’t do any more children. If I ever get married again and I fuck the next one up, my social security checks go to the next ex-wife. I can’t risk that financial ruin again in this lifetime.
What is marriage anyway? A dice roll. A legal binding contract between two people where if you split up you could lose half your shit?
We’re not that.
We were never that.
Our love goes far beyond the trappings of traditional marriage.
So I’ll leave it at that. An elegant moment in history.
I believe in having a good sense of humor. People tell me I’m funny, and I have even done stand up. If you ask a woman what she wants in a man, one of the things will always be, “good sense of humor.”
I know some hilarious guys who are alone. Most women don’t want that. That’s just something they read somewhere, or a lie they’ve been told. But I really believe in the power of laughter. So although this has been a long and sometimes difficult tome to write, I will leave you on a humorous note.
I’ve laughed and cried writing it, and I like laughing better. So I’ll do the funny bit, then close with something from the heart. I’m going to start with something I have never told anyone.
Not even Michelle.
Then I’m going to tell you something Michelle told me a couple of years ago.
If you go back to the first chapter of Michelle, you’ll read how I describe her as this beautiful, tall goddess. I’m the loser scuttling along behind her down the hallway in my cheap ass squeaky shoes. Michelle is a former print and runway model and National Champion Swimmer. She stands at 5’11”. In heels she is 6’3″.
Yea… That is a Sexy Baby.
Our hero on the other hand, is only 5’9″. Which isn’t bad. Like my mother used to say, “We’re average.”
Do I mind my height? Absolutely not. Every guy would like to be tall. At least 6 foot. But I have been perfectly happy with my size in regard to every part of my anatomy. No one has ever complained.
“It’s not the music, it’s how you play it”.
But, when I started spending more time with Michelle, especially at work, in the field or at a bar, she would be in heels. Our height differential became glaringly apparent to me. So I went online. I think the company is overseas. It’s called Tall Man Shoes. I ordered two different styles of dress shoes from them. The shoes are constructed in such a way, that it looks like a normal men’s dress shoe, but inside is a lift.
If you look at them carefully, the heel is slightly higher. But not enough to notice and the back of the shoe is higher and longer vertically. So those shoes gave me another two inches in height. No one ever knew. I just appeared that height. I wore them all of the time and even got a pair of casual shoes. They were quality made shoes and lasted a long time. I nearly twisted my ankle half a dozen times in those damn things.
One time, I actually went off a curb sideways wearing those shoes and really hurt my left foot. I couldn’t walk on it for a day or two and had to call out of work. I called Michelle to get me booze because I was crippled by my shoes and she didn’t want to help me because she was too busy!
But I never told her!
I think I stopped wearing them after that.
Funny thing is, the next girl I started dating after Michelle was six feet tall! Yep, I was back wearing the fucking high heels! (Annabelle!)
She told me she faked ALL of her orgasms with me.
Every one of them.
You would think that would wound my manhood.
The flaccid, cold fact that I was unable to please my most beloved woman when I made love to her.
But it doesn’t.
You know why?
BECAUSE I NEVER FAKED ANY OF MY ORGASMS!
Now, as promised…a heartfelt note.
Thank you for everything. I am proof that here in the City of Brotherly Love, your dreams can come true. Life is what you make it. Michelle is proof of that. Today your life could be an elegant dream. Tomorrow a nightmare. Be thankful for what you have. We all make choices, that’s part of growing up. Happiness cannot exist without sadness.
I have been very lucky. Michelle has moved forward with her life without me. Here I am dating women and going nowhere with any of them.
But I know why I am where I am.
Even my daughter Lorelei will leave me to fly on new wings like Michelle. For different reasons, but it’s all just a matter of time.
She’ll be gone too.
I don’t know if Michelle was the love of my life, but it sure felt like it.
But my life isn’t over yet.
These fifteen chapters of our greatest hits has been a love letter to you. The series has run from Hallowen 2016 right up to your birthday this Memorial Day Weekend when we first went to NYC and consummated our love back in 2008, Michelle.
Thank you for loving me and being in my life. You always said I was prosperous. I know you were a big part of that.
Special thanks to everyone who supported the story and read it every week and followed me on this amazing journey. Thanks to the real Michelle for reading it and helping me remember all of our wonderful times together. Thank you friends, family and WordPress followers. I love you and all of your comments and support.
(Yea, My sisters read this blog and it’s horrible. Really?)
I write this with tears in my eyes.
My late father once said: “Every man dies, but not every man lives.”
I have truly lived and loved.
I am proud to have had the honor to dance with you Michelle in my livingroom and terrorize this town on a daily basis with you back in the day.
I’ll never forget it.
I will continue my journey through this life. I’m glad you’re all along for the ride.
Life is fleeting and fragile.
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